Restless

I feel so incredibly restless today. I can't concentrate even though I still have to study. I barely managed to drag myself to the KAPLAN test center to take a practice MCAT test, after I finished I hurried home. And now I am jumping from one thing to the other, never finishing anything but starting a few things. It makes me mad that I can't concentrate because I have to go through this test and figure out where my mistakes are. I am thinking to skip Yoga tomorrow because I the test date is approaching. And maybe all of this is just my way of exhibiting nervousness for what is to come in January. But this time I just can't afford this nervousness.

I think that this restfulness and unconscious nervousness is just a symptom of my anxiety for the test day. Lately, I have been horrible hurrying everywhere and forgetting things. This is what happens when you try to cheat time and you do not let things progress naturally. It is bad when you are at home and decide to go grocery shopping because you need this and that but once you step into the grocery store you forget why you are there. That is what has frequently been happening to me. About a month or more ago I started writing things down that I needed to buy or things that I needed to do in order not to forget.

Right now I just feel like putting my coat and start walking, where to I don't know I just feel like I need to walk, to exercises my body in order to thing clearly. In fact, maybe I should go to the gym if not to Yoga tomorrow. It might do me some good.